Abnormal.

Once again, the message in Bible study spoke to me in a place where I had no idea I needed conviction and healing..

Beth explained that some of us are so afraid of being mediocre..so afraid of being normal, that we'd rather be abnormal.

Chew on that for just a minute..do I so fear a life sentence of normalcy or mediocrity that I will become something abnormal in an attempt to avoid it?

Do I wallow in the pit of despair and swirl in the whirlpool of self-pity to the point of depression so that I at least feel something? So that I won't just be another 'nobody' maintaining a boring existence until the day comes for me to die..?

God forgive me! Forgive me for thinking normal isn't good enough..